8.30.2009

Truth Seen Untrue

Here I am, wounded and broken.
Feeling rejection from many a soul.
To where can I run, to where can I go?
These false conjectures, and twisted truths,
have separated many a person.
I have only ever told the truth, so how am I
to be punished for what I have not done?
Many a line is now dissevered, cut away from
those I used to hold dear.
They throw me down under false accusations,
untrue, blinded only by what they want to see
and hear.
How could things have gone so awry when only
half truths have been uttered from their lips?
Truth has yet to be told, but will not get it's chance.
For they will believe only what they want to believe,
all the truth uttered from my lips aloud would be
thrown out like chaff into the wind.
Half told truths, askewed, and thrown in my
face...they try to cause me disgrace.
I shall not be shaken, by the lies of their making.
My feet shall not falter as I stand in truth.
Now the bond between them and I die...forced
to let go and move on from them.
I now stand steadfast ready to make this pained
heart mend.
(Psalm 16:7-11)

8.16.2009

God has O.C.D.?

As I have been reading through the Book of Exodus in the Bible I had a startling thought... "What if God has O.C.D. too?" The tabernacle had to be just so...and the memory of Moses...are you kidding me!?! God gave Moses a laundry list about how HIS tabernacle was to be built...even down to how long the tapestries needed to be...the list was probably the length of two football fields and yet Moses memorized everything that was said to him by God. Yes...I want Moses' memory bank...please!

So, I guess what I am getting at is that "I AM NOT A CRAZY PERSON!" LOL! Okay...I may not have O.C.D. (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) for real, but I sure do like for my closet to be color coordinated and divided amongst seasons...my dvds are all alphabatized and I have my sock collection set just so.

God likes order... and so do I! "Now if only I could find that missing memory chip that inserts into my brain!!!" URGH! ROFL! :)

-Miss O.C.D.

8.14.2009

"Blue, Purple & Scarlet" (excerpt)

She dreamed of Aaron standing outside her window. In the dream Aaron looked up at her, but when she had called to him he merely turned his back and walked away in the direction of the castle.

Scarlet began to toss and turn, as if she were and alligator in the midst of a death roll. She began to call to him, "Aaron, no don't..." she whimpered in her sleep. With one final death-like roll her blanket slid off of her and sunk down onto the cold stone floor...and her dream continued on as she settled again only momentarily.

Scarlet began to run down the street towards the castle, as her dream continued onward from where she had left off. She ran and ran, feeling that her legs were weakening by the second, she pressed onward determined to find her dearest friend in the darkness of night.

Scarlet finally reached the castle, she had never stopped to notice how empty the cold grey stone walls of the castle looked before. As she entered through the stone columns, her eyes adjusting to the dark, she saw Aaron standing there alone in the inner courtyard of moss covered stone. She thought she had begun to speak, but no such word had been uttered from her lips. Aaron had vanished and in his stead was the King with his arms held out wide, as if he were beckoning her to himself.

The King spoke her name aloud gently, with the utmost kindness and care. Scarlet took one step back, in the confusion of it all, and then the king, as well as everything in the inner courtyard raced away in front of her as she began sailing backwards through the stone columns.

Scarlet jolted upright in her bed, her eyes full of tears she began to speak. "It was all a dream...nothing more...only my own wild imaginative thoughts" she said aloud to comfort herself. Scarlet leaned over the wooden frame of her bed and felt around on the stone for her missing blanket. She finally grabbed hold of her blanket and threw it back over herself, and once again she fell back to sleep.

No more dreams invaded her mind as she slept...only the rythmic sound of her steady breathing could be heard aloud.

8.10.2009

"Wait On Me"

"Wait on me, I call to thee. Please seek me out...I want your whole heart! For all of your attention, darling, I seek."

"You go through hard times my dear, and I am here...you call me in. You begin to feel like your feet are on solid ground once again, and then you seem to retreat from me. Why do you run daughter, from my loving arms?"

"Lord my silly efforts to save myself never turn out quite as planned. I need you God! You and You alone can save me from myself."

"You are never finished with me...your daughter...you wait upon my sincere calling. You show mercy and grace, even to one as I who is so undeserving!"

You say, "For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him!" So here I am, once again, your daughter in waiting!
~Isaiah 30:15 & 18~

Remiss No More!

Sorry, I have been remiss in writing any blogs recently...or posting any of my blog's readers' comments! I have been very busy, trying to stay busy.

I took a mini vacation back to my home-town to spend time with "Lyn-Love," who is like a second Mother to me, and "Homer," who is like a younger brother to me. I probably spent way too much time on the internet at their home playing W.O.W. with my Bubby, and messing around with my myspace page.
I was able to go back and visit my old church...and even run into a few old friends!
[I HAD SUCH A GREAT TIME YOU GUYS! ;) MUCH LOVE!]
Now that I am back home I am getting ready to go on the job hunt...and I am also looking forward to starting a bible study on the Book of Galatians with my best gal pals Hannah and Nikki! :)
I will try earnestly to better the reputation of myself as a 'fellow blogger!' I am in the midst of working on a story called "Blue, Purple, & Scarlet" (working title) inspired by reading the Book of Exodus.
I should also probably let you all know that I have NOT stopped writing poetry...I just haven't been posting any! I have written over a hundred poems...and I cannot even begin to fathom sitting down and typing them all out on my blog page...so bare with me...in patient time you will see more of them!
--Bridgette! lol...