First Coming

He did not wait till the world was ready,
till men and nations were at peace.
He came when the Heavens were unsteady,
and prisoners cried out for release.

He did not wait for the perfect time.
He came when the need was deep and great.
He dined with sinners in all their grime,
turned water into wine. He did not wait

till hearts were pure. In joy he came
to a tarnished world of sin and doubt.
To a world like ours, of anguished shame
he came, and his light would not go out.

He came to a world which did not mesh,
to heal its tangles, shield its scorn.
In the mystery of the Word made Flesh
the Maker of the stars was born.

We cannot wait till the world is sane
to raise our songs with joyful voice,
for to share our grief, to touch our pain,
He came with Love: Rejoice! Rejoice!

Come now just let it go...let it

"Come now just let it go, let it fall down. Let it all flow like...the water that's rushing in over your soul til there's nothing left...won't you come to me and rest?" from the song 'Rest' By: Nevertheless

As I listened to this song only a moment ago....realization hit me...I have made no time for God lately! That is a startling realization, especially since I have so many things I need to lay at His feet, praise Him for...asking Him to help out others that are on my heart right now.

He still works in my heart and in my life when I am not currently 'talking' to Him...but I know He longs for me to call on Him daily...He yearns to hear my voice call His own. He longs for me to come and rest. I am gonna take a minute to pray...and I feel it is welcomed that I post it here...I don't think My King will mind.

"Lord, right now I owe you an apology! A big one! I am sorry... You have been patient enough, and so filled with grace and love for me. I know that you were just waiting for me to realize that just resting....perhaps even sitting what I need right now. Maybe that's why I have been sick so many days...could you have meant for that to grasp my attention when I had finally sat still long enough? I am sorry I have been so distracted...I fall in and out of the rhythm...over and over...and I don't understand. I feel so empty, and yet also wholly filled can it be? Thank you for my family, for my Boyfriend Jared, my friends, this coming holiday season...for the many blessings you have given me! Thank you! Please Lord help me to remember to stay in your word, and to stay in touch with rest. *amen*"

'There is only one relationship that really matters, and that is your personal relationship to your personal Redeemer and Lord. If you maintain that at all costs, letting everything else go, God will fulfill His purpose through your life.' Devotion for November 30th (My Utmost For His Highest.)

I love you for reeling my heart back in every time I cast myself away from you Lord!
-Your Daughter

A Walk To Remember...

No words have I to say today...these moments frozen in time will have to suffice. Oh yes, it was undoubtedly a walk to remember!

Jared Fisher

"Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life." -Proverbs 13:12

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no records of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."
1 Corinthians 13:4-7

I want to introduce someone very special to you, my fellow blog boyfriend, Jared Fisher. I met Jared this summer while chaperoning at Centrifuge 2009. I thank God daily that I went to FUGE. I never would've met Jared otherwise!

From the moment I met him...I knew that I wanted to get to know him better. I knew he was worth getting to know...worth putting myself out there for.

I asked for his e-mail address on the last day of camp, only hoping that we would keep in contact. I didn't think that I would ever see Jared again to be perfectly honest...but I knew that I wanted too.

So for the next 4 months Jared and I proceeded to send back many numerous e-mails to one another....until it became an every day occurrence....which was what I was hoping it would turn out to become all along. :)

I want to take the time to list just a *few* things that I absolutely love about Jared:
  • He loves God with all of his heart!
  • He is guarding my heart.
  • He is loving.
  • He is really handsome!
  • He is respectful.
  • He is leading...
  • He is family oriented.
  • He is a hopeful romantic.
  • He is very caring.
  • He is not self seeking.
  • He and I are similar.
  • His heart speaks in words too.
  • He sees my heart, and not just the mask.
  • He is funny.
  • He is smart.
  • and He loves me where I am at.
We have been in a relationship now for 9 days. I don't even really know how we made the jump! I told Jared how I felt, and he reciprocated my affections that were held in my heart. Thank God I was able to speak my heart. I do struggle with doing that so...God must have known that Jared was the one that I would finally need to speak up for...because he is truly worthy. Honestly the last 9 days+the last 4 months of talking to him....well they have been the best days of my life so far!

To Jared With Love!

"There's something dancing, here in the shadows. And I wish it were us." from our song...

Longing for Europe

I have been thinking about going back to Europe a lot lately. I am ready to go back. If I had the money, I would board a plane next week and set off on random unplanned adventure. I so long to do unplanned things...which is laughable because I am typically a type-a planner. Today I listened to the German Band "Tokio Hotel" on are superb. They sing in English, and yet they are a German band with an asian inspired name...puzzling I know! And so the thoughts of my European adventures leapt to thought in my mind...fond memories. Except I did lose 15 pounds while there in Germany...I am NOT a big meat eater...and I missed my Momma...we'll leave it at that.

I have been thinking about the cobblestone streets, the bakeries, the array of various different looking people, the smells, boarding the train at the station, the castles overlooking the Rhine as you pass by on the railway train cars. The cold weather that changes so cannot plan on what to you must layer. The rich color of the ground...the fields in the harvesting their crops. I thought the 4 story apartment style houses colored cream and framed for wood were very interesting. Bubbly water to drink...they do not have water like we do here...unless you beg of course. the double decker Burger King...made of many glass windows that encompassed the view of the city. Eating at a banquet hall for about 3 hours for brunch...and then walking for about what felt like 6 hours to me...I do not know exactly how long we walked...but I have never ever walked that far since. Riding on the Autobahn...what an experience...felt like I was in a Nascar race or something...and my relatives...well let's just say that there is a reason why a few of them no longer have their driver's license's.

I remember the warmed tile floor in my relatives house. The weather was so cold when I was in Germany, near Hamburg, visiting my relatives Egorn and Angelica. I remember their big black sheep dog named Misha...who has now passed. Misha jumped in the car when we went somewhere and she knew that I was in her this 100 plus pound dog literally moved me all by herself since I was in HER SEAT! I remember slipping out from under the goose down feather comforter on the bed, placing my feet on the warmed tile floor (which was warmed with hot water pipes under the floor) that I found quite amazing. Then we went to a shoe was two stories and there was a man in a leather vest...he was hanging off of an old type of ladder one might see in an old library, it had wheels aligned at the bottom of the end rung...and he swung that ladder around climbing back and forth between the two stories searching for shoes for the customers. The shoe-man would find the perfect style, color, and size shoes that the waiting customer longed for, and then he would gently remove it from it's wooden cubbies on the was quite a spectacle to behold. I was enamored! I love shoes. I ended up getting some "Elephantan" shoes...which are quite popular in Germany...I thought I was so cool! :)

I remember playing with my cousins. The first day I got there, after taking the train to Tante Regina picked us up where we travelled to their home by car. I thought I was going home to meet Jesus that day...Tante what a crazy driver she is! While I was playing with Auri and Sandor I got my finger stuck in the rope of the swing they were twirling me around in...I screamed stop! although they could not speak English...then I just screamed louder...and well, that is a known action for one to stop what they are doing and get a parent in any language! haha I went to Lagos a German water park...I nearly drowned in the wave pool and I saw a bunch of people in their full glory...that I will never, again I say NEVER forget. German people are obviously more open to being "free." Not I, I say!!! go back. I will one day....I just know it! I want to travel...albeit not by my lonesome...I need a traveling companion. I could tell you so much more of my European travels...more about my kooky family members...whom I love and yet I do not know them very well...yet I love them all dearly. I could tell you about me thinking that my family was gonna get mad cow disease from eating raw hamburger meat on toast for breakfast...and about how the steak I ordered at a five star restaurant, needless to say, it was covered in and sitting in a pool of blood. Meat is not that appealing...hasn't been ever since. Oh, I could digress about the faces, smells, and merchandise of an outside German market...on a rooftop no less. I could drive on the autobahn next time I go...if I get an international license that is....hmmm sounds plausible to me?

I miss my Germany...I wonder if she misses me? Shall we meet again? For now I shall say "Ja" in the future....and adieu! I want to go back again "bitte!"

Auf Weidersehn!
-"Zara" as I am affectionately called in Germany!

50% on it's way to 100%

I am still not feeling up to the usual 100%, but I am getting better! I have been on the computer most of the time yesterday and today. Watching movies...reading e-mails...e-chatting it up with my homies! lol

I thought...well I haven't posted anything in a something...even if very random is better than nothing! :)

I need to get far as my devotional's and time with God is concerned. If any of you guys have any suggestions or advice I'd love to hear it!

Well, I am getting off....I have things to do.

Until next time...

No Pain, No Gain {Superchic[k]}

Well, I wish I was a superchick. I wish I had not walked 5 miles...scratch that...I enjoyed my time walking verily. I think next time I shall be more chary about the exact distance I decide to go though. It was so beautiful...where I went walking at...just down the road a piece mind you. Yeah right...I walked roughly 2 1/2 miles there and back of roughly guesstimating I walked for about 5 miles. I talked to a few cows... It was really funny...when I got back from my long walk I told my Momma that I was talking to the cows, mooing at them, and they were listening, and then at the same moment Momma and I both said guess I/You am/are like the "Cow Whisperer!" :) Gotta love it...great mind's think alike...

I am sorry this blog entry is so random and spacey. Right now I am in pain, I am happy, I am full of joy, and I am in a wondering state...

I don't wanna go ANYWHERE today...but the car payment is I must leave my humble abode. Maybe Momma can take me to go make my car payment today...I don't really feel like driving feeling the way I do.

I am in a very talkative mood today, so give me a call or text me or something...................


PS- I have a bad cough...let's pray and ward off that potential 'cold bug' away from me shall we!?!?

Virago (10-26-09)

  • Becoming. What a strange word.
  • Bridgette. She is the inner dragon of my heart. You'd better watch out because she'll take you down mid flight. Now I've become her.
  • It's nearing midnight, and my writing seems absurd and askewed.
  • My mind is too strong, I can't fall asleep. It is only getting too persuasive saying 'stay awake!'
  • Awake...never again to dream?
  • This virago fights with her mind all of the time...until it finally caves.
  • I speak as though a clever shadow of the mind, like Gossamer, having an out of body experience.
  • Not so, say I. I'm only inspired.
  • This late twilight, a period of my mind's wild imaginative decline.
  • I speak as one, to make thee deaf.
  • I cannot control myself, the insomniac speaks in my head.
  • This virago's voice deep in my mind won't take a hint, she won't leave me alone. She is much too loquacious, even for her own good.
  • Her voice is like an amaranth...a flower never fading.
  • Will this silly verse be her penultimate?
  • G'night she finally states. This virago needs some rest. Now I lay me down to sleep, I say, as I finally lay down my head.

(I need some restful sleep!!! Virago means strong woman or a heroine in Latin. Bridgette...well that is a name that I have been dubbed with. She is my stronger half that isn't afraid to do ANYTHING!)

Congratulation's are in order!

One of my best guy friends, Ben, who I have known since I was 3 years old just told me some exciting news. I feel so honored, as he is a dear friend of mine, that I was the first person he told that he is going to be getting married on June, 19th 2010. Congratulations Ben & Crystal! I love you so much Ben...I wish you nothing less than blissful happiness and blessings from God in your life! You keep on running the race that is marked by Him...and you are sure to succeed in life.

Also, my parent's will have been married for 24 years as of tomorrow, November 2nd. Congratulations Daddy & Momma! I love you both so much! You have both been such loving parents and great examples of what living as Christ looks like. Though we struggle, it is meant to be sometimes, tempered on the other side you will emerge from the flame with God alongside.

You both have taught me well, and I seek to be as great a parent as you both are one day. Thank you Daddy (Mark) & Momma (Franziska) for being who God called you both to be. Thank you for raising me with love, and a fear of God...because of you both I have come to know who Jesus Christ is! I love you dearest...Momma! I Luba Yuba Tuba...Daddy!

Much Love,